Being on earth requires taking a lot of prescribed pills, so
that I don’t become manic again. It is
such that, sometimes I relapse, and have even been hospitalized while taking my
full prescribed medication regimen. My
wife sees this and she knows that if it was not for my pills, I would be too
sick to have a healthy relationship with her.
So, there it is, without pills, I am a space cadet. Without pills I am lucky to get 45min of
sleep on any given night, and it was that way for more than an entire year, as
I have tried going off medication before, and it did not work. When I do not get my pills, the amount of
hallucinations, visual, auditory, and tactile, I experience increases, while I
am awake.
The reason I believe I am so manic now, is that growing up I
was so depressed. In fact, I believe my
parents abused me, working me too hard, as I was so sick and so tired. At one point, at a job while I was in
college, one person called me, “The tiredest human being on earth.”
How can this be so, you may wonder? The problem was that when I consumed gluten,
which is wheat protein and gluten is protein for a few other grains, and
casein, which is milk protein. The
opiate in gluten I was tested for was gliadorphin. The opiate in casein I was tested for was
casomorphin. I knew this from a
non-standard urinalysis ordered for me by a very special doctor from the Great
Plains Laboratory. Thus, it is such that
I believe that since the first 20+ years of my life were characterized by suppression
in food related opiate intolerance, that when these foods were removed from my
diet because I had been abused to work when I was so tired I lost my ability to
sleep. However, the answer is not to
return to wheat eating and dairy eating, as those are more horrible than 45min
of sleep each day coupled with the insanity of delusions, and hallucinations. It seems that I am best, meaning that I
function at an optimal level on pills.
My daily medications are as follows:
2,000mg Depakote ER
1 pill of Serenaide digestive enzyme, such that any opiate I
might consume is digested.
6mg of manganese so that I don’t get paranoid.
5,000 IU of Vitamin D:
I have had chronically low levels of vitamin D.
1 Multivitamin
20mg Zyprexa
2mg Klonapin
300mg Thorazine
100mg Benedryll
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